Yesterday afternoon, I was hanging out with some friends at their apartment in Tumon. We sat around and drank champagne (in moderation!) while I crushed a massively delicious shrimp burger from Meskla Dos. (If you haven’t already, check this place out! My seriously hungover companion got the tuna melt – it looked awesome.)
At one point I took a break from the destruction, and I remember being in the kitchen and thinking to myself “I wish I could freeze time – right now.” At that moment I stopped myself in my own tracks and I took a quick second to appreciate everything and everyone in my life. I was surrounded by wonderful friends, in a wonderful space. I had spent another great weekend with people I adore, and one of my best friends in the whole world was just down the street. My heart was overflowing.
But with that being said, the feeling of wanting to freeze time is both a light, happy feeling, and also a heavy, sinking feeling. I was grateful for everything and everyone in my life, but I was also acknowledging the reality of life, especially life here on Guam. Like I wrote in my last post, time is flying. Guam is transient and people are always coming and going. Most of my friends already know when they’re set to leave. I don’t want to be negative, just honest – I meet awesome people every single day, and that’s not going to stop. However, I have been spending a lot of time with some people I really adore, and their friendship, to me, is rare. And while it is inevitable that people will leave and things will change, I just want as much time and memories with these people as possible.
I feel incredibly lucky to have such a “struggle.” I’ve found that life on Guam is constantly providing me with reminders to appreciate the present and those around me. When it comes to family and truly wonderful friendships, there’s simply never enough time, which makes it all the more important to take advantage of the time that we do have.
I haven’t seen my Faye yet (tonight) but just driving by the Westin, and knowing that she’s in there, is one of the coolest and most comforting feelings ever. I’m so happy she’s here.
Back to work now. Need more coffee. King Mav (Mr. Mavz, Mav-Bot, Mav-Man) woke me up at 4:45 this morning wanting to play. Glad your energy is back up, little dude. Can you stay tiny forever? Maybe just let the ears keep growing?